We had this stupid dance that we would do before every show. It was so funny because he just made up the steps and I don't dance so I never got the steps until our last few shows. And we would always do it in the dark right before they play the national anthem so we never really saw what we were doing and we would step on each other's feet. but we would do it anyway... for good luck I think?... or just for whatever... to make each other laugh maybe?... but I think it was really just for whatever. And we would always say to each other that our inner Isabel and Angelo would always love each other.

I will super miss that. That is my favorite memory of you. I hope you know.

Rest in Peace Angelo. 'Til the next time we do our dance. I'll always have my inner Isabel.

Funny moment of the week:

Watching Gossip Girl. Episode 10-13.

The DVD player is in my dad's room and he sort of just sits there when I watch gossip girl. Hehe, I totally boxed out so I could watch my pirated DVD. After a while, he starts asking me questions about the characters. It's so hard to explain the plot to someone who didn't watch from the start! Anyway finally got to the final episode of the season and DVD goes back to menu.

Dad: That's it?
Me: Yup, First season pa lang.
Dad: What?? When are the making the next season???

Haha. It's weird but cute! My dad likes gossip girl. :) He totally can relate to rufus humphrey. haha. He was all like "What if I open my own art gallery?" haha.

Dad: (pahabol) What does xoxo mean???

Hahaha ;)

I hate talking about my feelings. I only talk about feelings so I'll seem normal. And in touch with my emotions. But in all honesty, I hate hate HATE talking about MY feelings. But guess what? I'm going to now.

This morning when I woke up, I realized how much I love my boyfriend and how much he loves me. And yes, i have to talk about it. because he's great. And I don't say it much because I hate feelings.

And I'm saying it because after three years of being together, you sort of settle into this comfort zone. Like you know each other so well. Inside and out. It's so comfortable... maybe too comfortable. And he's your best friend. You're such great friends that it's sort of easy to forget that he's your boyfriend too. Especially when you both have so much going on in your lives. Anyway, the point is, I realized that I love him as my best friend but that it's important I love him as my boyfriend too.

So I promise I'll be a better girlfriend. Cause I'm a pretty good best friend right now. And cause this morning i realized that I'm sure, more than ever, that I want to be your girlfriend too.

What Rizzy Means

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

Just ended the year 2007 with a wonderful beach vacation. I love the beach. There's something about the salty air, the sand between your toes, the salty water on your lips, the blue of the sea and the sky and the heat of the sun... it always puts me in the best mood ever! But what I love best are the nights.

There's nothing like lying down on the sand... looking up at the stars and realizing how you are such a small part of the universe that you could very well be as small as the grains of sand you are lying on... there's something about the sea air blowing on your face and on your toes and when you wonder where that wind has come from, where it's going, how long it might have journeyed and how you have just been part of its mysterious path. And there's definitely something about feeling so small and so mysterious right beside the person who loves you no matter what and who you love with all your heart. It's as if the sounds of the beach are in perfect tune with the sappy but real beating of your heart, along with the butterflies in your stomach and the sparkling twinkling of your eyes. :)

Happy 2008 everyone! As we countdown to a brand new year, I am wishing that this coming year, we can all feel so small, so mysterious and so loved. :)

December is without a doubt my favorite month. All the best occassions happen during this time of the year: My birthday, Christmas, My Aniv, New Year. There's no other month that makes me feel like a celebration is in order. No other month that makes me want to plan my outfits to match my Christmas Spirit. No other month when I can look forward to food for the gods, chicken loaf, and other special chirstmas concoctions. No other month where I try (unsuccessfully) to wake up early to go to mass.

Unofrtunately, my December was none of the above for some time. It was physics test from hell. It was stressing over selling my apartment. It was changing a marketing plan in one hour. And thankfully now...

I finally feel December is here.

My teacher in Theo said it well when he said: "Kailangan natin ng pahinga, dahil minsan nakalulunod ang nilikhang mundo." When he said that, I felt he had read my previous livejournal entry and aimed those words directly at me. And now I am a float! Swimming and doing backstrokes instead of gasping for air and kicking like mad. Christmas break has arrived and now I feel well-rested for the first time in... how many months? Yes December is finally here.

So this Christmas season, I wish you the usual good food, great gifts, fun friends and loving families. But I also wish you time to rest, swim and bask in all the goodness you can see, feel and taste this December. May it be your favorite month as well!

A very Cherry Christmas!

Love,
cheRIZZY

After more than a year of not writing anything I have decided to awaken my livejournal from its sleeping-beauty state.

If you are reading this and unlike me have been diligent in updating your livejournal, don't fret because I have been regularly reading my friends page! I have read all your updates and in fact it is part of my internet routine: yahoo, hotmail, livejournal and my most-recent-happiest-confusing addition, facebook. So thanks for keeping your live journal live! There's nothing like a good story, especially when it's form your friends.

Thanks and Intros Aside...

If I were to accuse myself of something one day, it would be spreading myself too thinly. I imagine myself at a police line-up, probably beside other stress-addicted people. I would be standing there, all 5'4 of me, with my untamed hair, my generic outfit and my oily face. In my pocket would be the ever expanding to-do lists that I make but always lose, my cell phone whose inbox is eternally full, and some crumpled piece of paper I don't even find time to throw. A witness surveys us and she stops lingering over me...

Number 2... Please step forward...

There are days when I wake up feeling as if I should continue where I left off yesterday (it doesn't help that I am in fact still in the same dirty clothes, holding the same highlighter, sleeping on the same handout I was reading the night before). I feel so busy all the time I keep forgetting where I put stuff. And somehow I can't escape the feeling that I should always be doing "something."

Turn to the left...

And yet, I can't imagine a life of doing "nothing." I get bored when I'm stressed. I get stresssed when I'm not stressed for too long (what the???) cause I feel as if I am wasting my time. There are always those small moments that make me feel that what I do is worthwhile, and I get excited. Things like learning a science fact, understanding my lines in a new light, or getting a big marketing idea. Yes, deep down I am a dork. But i also know I need to learn to say no as well. And I'm working on it so that i can do the things I love better. Maybe get more butter for the spreading or less bread to spread on.

So back to my police line up, I would probbaly be caught guilty. But I'd also probably be all smiles in my mug shot... :)

Hello all, this is the first time I'm posting in a long time, so it is really important! haha :)

APARTMENT for RENT!

100 E. Abada St. Varsity Hills Katipunan (Near Bo's Coffee)

2Bedroom
Semi-furnished
10k/month
NO downpayments or advances, just post dated checks

This is where I used to stay but now I am staying with my tita. It's a really nice place with a home-y feel and it's a really good deal. It's super colorful (painted by Carms and Nana, yeay!) and there is lots of space. It's 60 square meters.

Other places are way more expensive (like around 15-20K for a 2bedroom) and they ask for downpayments etc. And if you know Samboy, he lives just right below me! You can move in ASAP!


Text me at 09188151218. Also please forward to your friends who might be interested. I really need help looking for a new tenant :)

Thanks! :)

Eight Descriptions of My Perfect* Lover
c/o Cecilia
Instructions:

* The tagged user has to come up with eight different descriptions of his or her perfect lover.
* He or she needs to mention the sex/gender of his or her perfect lover.
* He or she must tag eight more people to join this game.

Gender: Man. A manly man. An I-will-pick-a-fight-with-you kind of guy.

1. He must be God fearing. I said this to myself when I was ten and I still think it applies.
2. SSS - Smile, Shoulders, Smell. hehe. It's not THAT important but if you can have these three good to-drool-for things, go for it!
3. He must be hardworking, driven and masipag. You don't have to be super intelligent or rich to have a good and stable future, but you got to be willing to work hard.
4. He must be able to put up with my melodramas. hehe. I think pinaglihi ako sa soap opera.
5. He must respect people. Family, friends, strangers, the richest, the poorest, whoever. Even if he doesn't like them, at least he's decent to them.
6. He's fun! We can laugh together and have fun. We can spend the entire day watching TV and the next driving to Batangas and the next day doing carpentry etc.
7. He understands that though we don't need each other, we choose to be with each other.
8. And for my boyfriend's sake... because I love him and he loves me even if I do really stupid things... my perfect (the imperfectly perfet) lover's name is Arturo Jose Constantino III.

OO na. Cheesy na.

I tag... (oh no I don't know how to tag people)
Vicky
Cam
Denise
Belli
Christina Campana
Marga
Pauline Yao
Sara Marquez

hehehe. sorry I thought of you guys!

Hey Guys! Please watch Tanghalang Ateneo's Ang Nilalang ni Victor Frankenstein! It's a really good play and you won't regret watching it, in fact, it's an official entry to the Simbuyo Theater Festival in CCP. :) Last few shows are next week, Wed. Thurs. Fri. Sat. 7pm and Sat. 2pm. Tickets are just 200 pesos! Text me if you want to watch so I can reserve you tickets! Hope to see you there! :)

Date:	2005-11-02 12:34
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	On a Baguio High!
Music:	Mr. Bright Side (Think we only had one CD going to Baguio)

10 Reasons Baguio was so wonderful!

1. I got to be with my family and aj the whole time! (after not spending time with them at all)
2. Semi-fresh mountain area (it's partially polluted by the fumes from the MILLIONS of jeeps and taxis in baguio!)
3. Dressing up for the weather... jackets, hats, turtlenecks... thanks to cam my fashion designer :)
4. EATING... (needless to say I'm fatter now...haha)
5. Peach Melba in Baguio Country Club (sigh)
6. UKAY UKAY! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
7. Driving around with your window down, holding hands, feeling the breeze blowing my hair, with a magnificent view :)
8. Looking at charming old baguio things (houses, parks, session road)
9. Doing typical baguio things (biking and boating in burnham park, eating longanisa, etc.)
10. not having to think about the time, what i should be doing, what I need to do tomorrow, just relaxing, having fun and enjoying my vacation...

Til next time baguio! I always have the best time when I go there and I'm hoping the next time will be soon! :)

Date:	2005-08-14 17:07
Subject:	A Public Apology to my Ten
Security:	Public
Mood:	Ashamed

This is what i remember of last night:






NOTHING.

Thank you to my man who had to take care of a psychotic girlfriend last night. He got puked on, hit, shouted at, and embarrased to death because of me. Alcohol is no excuse and I have none. If you were there last night and you were unfortunate enough to witness it, then please do me a favor and don't mention it to me because I'm already dying of shame. Anymore and I'll explode na! Yes, it was THAT bad. I have NEVER been that drunk before.

I love you, thank you for taking care of me and for not judging me. Thank you for REALLY being my better half last night. I can't face you and there is no excuse for the way I behaved last night. You will never see this entry, but everything here is true.

If you ever find someone who loves you at your worst - covered in puke, crawling all over, bitching and shouting nonesense - if you find someone who has forgiven you even before you knew you had something to be sorry about- if you find someone who still loves you when you've been so unfair -hang on to him. It's a kind of love you're almost ashamed to have been so blessed with, but always the one that you know without a doubt is real.

I love you aj.

Date:	2005-07-04 19:30
Subject:	My unexplained happiness
Security:	Public
Mood:	jubilant
Music:	Vivaldi hehehe

I'm so happy, I really am! I'm not sure exactly why but I feel happy! I should be stressed and frustrated and tired but i don't know! hahaha :) AND I am so happy, I actually took time out to update my journal (after centuries) just to spread my happiness. And for no apparent reason ;)

Have you ever tried chocolate covered tenny bears? They're weirdly yummy :)

ORSEM 2005 hau'oli!

I am so going to miss saying hi to the freshmen and the TNTs. Hosting was such a fun experience. it was so tiring but I had so much fun! After orsem night, we (mia, erika, diega, jake and kiefer) got to go on stage one last time just to close orsem. We were all huddled togethre and tearing before going up on stage. It was the last time we were going to be together on stage. I'll miss looking at the whiteboard, holding my cue cards, thanking C2 green tea cool plus clean and Polo the Mint with the hole. I'll miss dancing around the stage and smiling from ear to ear. I learned to be generous this orsem and to have fun. Thank you to the people I worked with (my co-hosts, mike, anna mae, pot, chin, gino, ent com, everyone!)

Welcome to all the freshmen! I hope you enjoyed orsem as much as I did!

To the freshmen next year... it would be an honor to see you all in your orsem! :)

hey guys! there will be a recharge this saturday for batch 3. It will be in gladys' house 2182 fatima street, san miguel village, makati :) 10 am until 2pm. Please bring money for lunch. Guys we're really encouraging everyone to attend this recharge. Apart form the fact that you cannot staff unless you attend a recharge, this will also double as a get together for us (after a long time... yeay!). Also, concerns about the weekend will be discussed :) If you are unable to attend this recharge, you are welcome to join the ctk recharge (which they have kindly allowed us to join) on april 16. Comm heads, attendance is required :) thank you!

Batch 3 Core
Rizzy, Te and Kritzia

Date:	2005-04-02 01:49
Subject:	ATTENTION!
Security:	Public
Mood:	WOHOOO!
Music:	Feels Like Home

 

Does this man look like he would make a good lawyer?

 

You better believe it! hahaha. AJ made it to Ateneo Law! Actually, he's up for the interview but I'm sure he'll do fantastic (I mean with his PR skills and all? Those of you that have met him... you know what I mean!) Congratulations tenten! He was so paranoid about not passing! he was getting all depresssed na nga eh because he thought he did bad. You guys should see him, he's all happy and I am so happy for him because this is what he wanted and this is what I know he'll give his all in.

 

I'm so happy! I'm so so proud of my AJ.

 

AB Political Science 2005, Loyola Schools Awards for Theater, All these TA Awards, Frustrated Rockstar, Future Law Student, a wonderful wonderful boyfriend and a great great friend...

 

SAAN KA PA?  hehehehehe.

 

</u>Yes world, I admit it. In his words I am "such a girlfriend."</font>

Date:	2005-03-06 11:05
Subject:	Helloooooooohhhhhhhh
Security:	Public
Mood:	wow... :)
Music:	For the Longest Time by Billie Joel

Hello out there! (echo: There, There...) Anybody here? (here, here...)

Wow. I am welcoming myself back to the livejournal world. Hello world!

I will write soon... after hell week is over...

I love my boyfriend. I really do. :)

Happy New Year!

This is the press release I've promised...

I have a boyfriend! AJ and I are together na!

hahaha. I'm so happy! I wanted to write more about it but I just didn't know what to say... we got together on the 31st (actually 1st na, pero we decided on the 31st pa rin hehe). He's a wonderful wonderful person who reminds me of the blessings God has given me in my life.The moment was nothing fancy, it was simple but perfectly imperfect and wonderful!!!  It was one of those moments when you appreciate the little joys and the essentials of life... a tenten :) he's my tenten :) and I wouldn't have it any other way... *awh*

One day i will come down from my little cloud and find the words to tell you all how truly happy I am...

in the meantime, greetings from the cloud! hahaha.

wishing you all the happiness this 2005!

Date:	2004-12-10 18:08
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	PMS at its finest

My hormones are out of whack. I am PMSing like anything. I began the morning NOT wanting to get up and consequently i already have a cut for NSTP and mind you today was our first meeting. I couldn't care less however as i was more concerned about my craving for jollibee french fies, only to almost pick a fight with the waitress who was taking light years to prepare it (im not being mean but she was chatting with everyone and doing other stuff) I spent the next two hours in english magically conjuring up ways to get even more annoyed at a certain boy. when the class ended he telephoned me and i took it upon myself to become even more annoyed over such an, admitedly, petty thing. I spent an hour deciding what to eat, and after purchasing the food, decided to buy another food. After which, i decided to abandon all my anger and do something nice for said boy. yes, i thought i was mad at him too, but you can never tell with these hormones. And then i passed by shopwise where a sales lady annoyed me because she didn't know what briefs were (i'm for real). And then on the way home i had an uncontrollable urge for V-cut. I passed by a convenience store only to find that they had all kinds of chips except v-cut and so even though i could have eaten something else i went to another sari sari store to buy my beloved v-cut. ten minutes since then have elapsed and now I am hungry. Huhuhu. It has begun.

haay nako...

Date:	2004-11-01 17:53
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	hihihi
Music:	Techno Music :)

Right now...

right at this moment (and whenever he says good night...)

I actually want to invest... :)